Complex PTSD is, well, complex. In my current study it said: “do people consider you complicated. Change the narrative, you are complex, beautifully complex.” Amen.
Fight or Flight mode, trauma response, hypervigilence, catatonic immobility and others are real.
Recently, I was rejected completely. Banned from returning to a group because my values and my publishing path, no longer aligned with their community values.
Rejection is a complex trigger for me. Warranted, or unwarranted does not matter. My operating system reacts immediately to perceived threats to my person. For years I could not put a name to this knee jerk reaction. It has been an honest struggle to regain my footing. And, honestly, I momentarily feel like I cannot move forward. I want to rebel, lash out, and reciprocate.
This sent me into a tailspin of trauma responses and emotional complexities. Rejection is my nemesis.
My inner critic went ballistic. My defense critic went into a mad frenzy. And then the Holy Spirit said be still.
It is better to be silent than to respond especially if you are operating in your trauma. Remember Susanne, what other people think about you is none of your business, that is about them. You do not have to defend yourself, you made choices in step with God’s path forward. There is no shame in it. You need to walk in revival and keep praying for your friends.
2026 is about Revival. A door closed means opportunity.
How do you handle rejection?
It used to set me back for weeks, months, years. Now usually 24-48 hours as I seek guidance from spiritual mentors and ground myself in truth.
Isn’t it funny how my 37 year career is endless daily rejection. Insurance sales. The more rejection you receive, the more sales you make. Its the law of large numbers. I need to work that into my soul. Rejection is not about you. Rejection is God’s direction in reviving my soul.
Friends, I can easily get lost in my feels. I want to share raw with you this year. I need revival, I need resuscitation, I need restoration. I need reminders of who I am in Christ and who God says I am especially when accusations fly.
I am a single woman in my fifties who has survived heinous acts at the hands of those who promised to love me and cherish me. I am a woman who is faithful to God, to her work, to her kids, grandkids, family, friends. I am a woman who does what she can to serve God in more than one way and to trust his provision. I am a woman, I am a sinner, I am redeemed. I am not perfect and I am not for everyone. That is ok. One of the hardest things for a people pleaser like me is understanding that some people will not want you in their circle and that is ok. Rejection is revival.
“My soul clings to the dust; give me life according to your word!” Psalm 119:25
Dear Jesus, revive our souls today. Forgive those who trespass against us. Let no sin be in our hearts and if their is make it known so we might be free. Help us seek change in our life, do CPR on our hearts and bring our path forward into view as week seek you. Help us to pray for those rejecting us. Thank you Lord for lessons learned and giving us tools to overcome. Without you we are nothing.
In your holy name we pray. Amen
Stay Beautiful,
Zanna
Susanne Moore 